Animefreak0999

I know no one really reads these except my outside of the internet friends so I iz gonna vent to no one. I have been kinda stressed lately for a number of reasons. I've been applying for jobs for about a year and a half and have gotten nowhere. I really need a job because I have to pay for my classes next semester which cost over 1 thousand dollars. Maybe to people with jobs this may not seem like alot but it really is when you don't have any money. One of the other reasons is that someone basically decided to cut me out of their life and I really wish they hadn't. Everytime I think I've mad new close friends outside my core group of old highschool friends, something happens that proves the situation otherwise. I don' know what to do but ignore the problem and hope that it isn't as damaging as I'm making it out to be. I don't have much in my life that makes me really happy and one of those things is people, but they often dissapoint me. People are flawed and I'm one of them but sometimes I wish it wasn't that way. That statement 'I'm losing fate in humanity one day at a time' or something like that is true for me. I hope one day that changes, but for now that's where I stand. Because this note was so sad in most respects I will say something happy at the end...I'm reading a book I really enjoy

I was super excited about Deathly Hallows part 1. I have seen the movie and I liked it but being me I found so many things that I wish were there, but of course that's normal for books turned movies. Hopefully the next film will clear up alot of the areas I thought they left fuzzy. I sometimes wish I hadn't read all the books before seeing the movies cause I'd enjoy them more...but in the end I'm glad I did. If you have seen the movie...what was your favorite part? Mine was probably the Malfoy MAnor scenes, because of how they portrayed the Malfoy's.

NOW TO THE SERIOUS QUESTION! I am in serious need of funds, and I've been trying to get a job and continue to do so. The problem is I still need money to pay for classes and small things like my phone bill. So my question is...would you pay me to write you stories? If so let me know how much, and how I could go about recieveing the payment. I know I haven't uploaded much onto this website but I do have a link to my FF acount on my main profile. I will also post it here. Let me know your thoughts and send me a PM with a request and please let others know if you think they'd be interested.

Thanks for your thoughts!
FF account:
www.fanfiction.net/u/1408769/S…

I love twitter! I get to hear what's going on in Celeb's lives and know what my friends are up to even if I don't see them everyday. I obviously have a twitter and if you wanna follow me here's the link: twitter.com/Darkerthanblak

I know not many people watch me and I'm not expecting tons of followers from this but just letting you know it's there

Sooooooooooo I once again have no indication anyone reads these but

it's kinda my own fault because I don't really contribute much to the

DA community I soon shall, sometime early next year I plan to get a

new laptop and start to write a fanfic and maybe even upload some of

my few drawings. I'm not sure yet who to write it about or even which

fandom? I'm lost so I need help figuring it out! I may do a poll! All I

ask is someone reply to this journal so I know someone would be

reading them! <3 for any comments posted!

Not much but since I never do journals, whatever. Life is confusing and apparently always will be. I miss those days of yesteryear when you were a kid and didn't have to worry over much except what ur fave color was or if boys still had cooties or not. But alas I cannot turn back time. Sidenote I just recently rewatched the film Twelve Monkeys(anybody heard of it? If you have tell me ur thoughts!) The movie's ending is left kindof open so you can draw ur own conclusions but mainly what I gathered was what is meant to happen will ultimately occur and there is not a thing you can do about it. Also I just had to write a paper about Concubines in Song Dynasty China. Although it was wierd it was interesting. Since I wrote my last journal on May 27th of last year(WOW I need to update more often!) I'm not as lonely, i'm actually quite busy and trying to handle social and academic stress. ANEWAY I'll leave you with these thoughts for now, whoever reads this although i'm not sure anyone does.